Dear family,
Yesterday and today was the most depressed I’ve felt. I’ve
been thinking of myself and my inadequacies in teaching. But our teacher felt
impressed to share a story. When she was about a year into her mission she had
been feeling really depressed and she was just sleeping and feeling sorry for
herself. She heard a voice tell her to just get over herself and go to work.
She told us that we can choose to be happy. So I applied it right then!
Then in the afternoon we got to meet with Brother Taylor and
he taught us how to receive revelation through prayer, and I was asked to be
the investigator in the demonstration. I prepped to be the investigator and I
really was expecting to just pretend and go through motions. But I had a great
experience after I prayed as the investigator to feel that what the
missionaries taught me was true. And after we just sat there and thought about
it and I could feel the spirit so strong!
We then got to practice with each other and Elder Murry and
I went into a room and he was the investigator. We went through some of his
problems and I asked him to pray. We got on the floor and it took him 10
minutes to finish the prayer and it was difficult because I didn’t know what to
say. But as I sat in silence I could feel the words that I should say.
After we had finished I said to Elder Murry, “I didn’t do
too well.” Then he said, “Did you feel the spirit?” I said “yes.” Then he said,
“I felt the spirit, and if you feel the spirit and the investigator feels the
spirit, you can’t say you didn’t do a good job.”
Then Brother Taylor came in and asked how it went. I told
him that it went great and we talked a little bit about it. He then said, “So
next time think more, ‘did I help them come unto Christ’, and not, ‘how did I
do in teaching’.”
These last few days I’ve learned a lot of how the Spirit
words and how the devil works in my life. I’m very grateful to be serving a
mission and I can’t wait to be in the field!
I love you all!!!
Love,
Elder John
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